Being young is all about the experiences: the first time you skip school, the first time you fall in love…the first time someone holds a gun to your head.
After being held hostage during a robbery at the local convenience store, seventeen-year-old Edie finds her attitude about life shattered. Unwilling to put up with the snobbery and bullying at her private school, she enrolls at the local public high school, crossing paths with John. The boy who risked his life to save hers.
While Edie’s beginning to run wild, however, John’s just starting to settle down. After years of partying and dealing drugs with his older brother, he’s going straight—getting to class on time, and thinking about the future.
An unlikely bond grows between the two as John keeps Edie out of trouble and helps her broaden her horizons. But when he helps her out with another first—losing her virginity—their friendship gets complicated.
Meanwhile, Edie and John are pulled back into the dangerous world they narrowly escaped. They were lucky to survive the first time, but this time they have more to lose—each other.
Edith Millen aka Edie is a 17 yr. old senior in high school living in Northern California in a town called Auburn. She attends a private school & has plans to go to Berkeley for college. One evening life as she knows it is forever altered when a routine stop at the local convenience store ends with her being held hostage at gun point by the town meth-head. Nearly dying changed her. The once good girl who put up with being bullied & was happy to just blend in now has no tolerance for jerks. Done with the snotty kids at her school Evie decides she wants to transfer to the local public high school to finish out the year. Being curvy & not popular, Evie’s never really fit in anywhere. Now she doesn’t care what people think of her.
On Edie’s first day at her new school she crosses paths with the boy who risked his life to save her. Her fellow hostage & hero John Cole. He was a complete stranger but she still felt an odd connection to him. They had both been through something awful & were trying to deal. While Edie was finally spreading her wings, John was trying to settle down a bit. He had a bad boy, troublemaker reputation as the ex-drug dealer. After his near death experience he was trying to get his life together & focus on his future.
Edie & John are drawn to one another and share a bond as survivors. They begin spending time together & realize they are both struggling with nightmares. Edie realizes John is the only one she can talk to about that night. He understood her because he lived through it too. Being around him is easy & lately he’s the only thing keeping her sane these days. They become best friends. Soon Edie develops a major crush on her gorgeous friend and has intense feelings for him. When she’s with John she’s happy.
-He was beautiful.
-Not once in my entire life had I ever been so curious about someone.
-“I never knew a girl I wanted to look after before.”
Edie wants to live life to the fullest with no regrets. There are so many firsts she’s yet to experience. When John helps her with one of those firsts things get complicated between them. She tries to keep him in the friend zone, but can’t quit replaying his lips on hers. She wants them to be more, but isn’t sure what she means to him.
John thinks he’s bad for Edie. He doesn’t want to bring her down, but real feelings are growing. Soon he’s consumed with thoughts of Edie, but when danger finds them again can they survive twice?
I really loved this book! It had a YA feel to it, & was something new from this author. I was sucked in & hooked from the beginning of this book. It has action, a hot, swoony, bad boy, and lots of emotion. It was a fabulous read!
-I wanted it all. Every part of him.
-Kissing John was everything.
-He kissed me slow and sweet. It seemed endless, as necessary to life as breathing.
-Touching him just about topped my list of favorite things to do.
-All of me wanted him, my heart and my head and all of the rest. Without a doubt, he made life better.